The fertile world around me

Lately I have been reminded how fertile my friends are.  A couple weeks ago I received a birth announcement and a pregnancy announcement on the same day.  Two other friends are further along in their pregnancies.  There were two more births this week.  I am assuming there will be another pregnancy announcement shortly since I know a couple who has been TTC for a little while now.

I try to share in their joy.  I really do.  I love that God is blessing so many of my friends with such a beautiful gift.  I express my congratulations in the most heartfelt way I can muster.  Some days I impress myself.  For some reason it is easier for me to be happy and sincere on the phone than by e-mail...perhaps it's because I let myself cry while writing e-mails because no one sees or hears the tears.

After one of the recent births I was looking at the baby pictures posted online, and I just started to sob.  DH simply held me.  He understood and didn't have to say a word.  It felt just like the scene from Ju.lie and Jul.ia.  I was so happy for my friends but at the same time I hurt so much.  I wondered if they knew, if truly knew the magnitude of the blessing they had been given.  Somehow the blessing seems infinitely greater when you're looking at it from across the chasm of infertility.